How can anyone tell that they've found their soul mate? How can someone be so sure that that person wouldn't just pack up and leave and let you be miserable for the rest of your life? What if that person would love you, give you the world, make promises of forever and in the end just trample on your heart and soul? No one can be so sure. BELIEVE ME.
At 20, I believed that I found the person who I would spend forever with. Who would cherish me, who would admire me, who would cling on to me... I stand corrected. Who am I to assume all of those? I was so lost in you that I didn't look at any of your negative traits. Yes, I knew of them but I didn't care. Just like I expected you didn't care about my faults. I was wrong again. Because at the end, you spat all those in my face in front of everyone. You were this great guy that everybody wants to hang out with, every girl who wants to be with and every guy who dreams to be. I don't know what I ever saw in you. Maybe I'm just that stupid. Like what you said ,"You'd just go for anybody who gives you the time. Oh and let's not forget about the money".
Who am I to grieve, right? Because at the end of it all, everyone's just gonna blame me for all of it. The deceit, the lying, the mistrust...all my fault. It doesn't matter now though. You've proven to me that there's no such thing as soul mate. Thank you for crushing that idea in my head that someday I will have that person who will treat me like I'm the one holding onto their string and if I let go, they'll not make it. You've ruined guys for me now. You've opened my eyes and made me realize that the people who I thought would always have my back, just left me like I'm a used rag. And if you didn't introduced yourself to me 15 months ago, I'd probably still be that carefree, untroubled, mirthful girl that I was before. Because now, I'm broken beyond repair.
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