Realizing

I tried to be perfect but I just can't. I tried to be the girl who you once knew but I changed. We both did. You became too attached. I was getting scared of how our relationship was becoming too deep and I can't handle it anymore. I don't wanna handle it. So I left. The distance somehow opened my eyes and eventually my heart. And I gave you another chance. I came back and you were still there waiting for me. You were perfect but I wasn't. I'm too fucked up for you. I had others on the side while you had your eyes focused on only me. It wasn't fair on the both of us. You're the kind of guy who every girl is dying to have and at one point, I was proud to call you mine. But we both had issues. I wanted for us to go back to being just friends, you wanted more. Some were telling me how foolish I was to let you go but others were telling me to just back off and end all ties. And that includes my best friend, your nephew. I was hurting everyone. There were two sides though. There's MY friends and there was OUR friends. Of course our friends saw and knew everything that we've been through. They're witnesses of our fucked up life together. And then there's my friends who only knew what I was telling them. I had to pick one opinion. And everyone knows what "opinion" I went with. Now I don't know how to get things back to the way it was before we got together. Because I'm feeling all these regrets. Did I do the right thing? I probably didn't.